I've been in the club.

In my last post I wrote about every homo needing to watch "The Broken Hearts Club", and if you have seen it to watch it again. I seriously meant that! I figured I should probably clarify why I feel everyone needs to see it. The movie is about a group of gay friends and the guys they date. You have the pretty boy, "newbie", gym bunny, and the normal less attractive gay guy.

The reason I think everyone should watch it is because gay guys do a lot of the things they do in the movie. In the movie the "newbie" falls for the first guy who shows him any attention. This is something I have done, which didn't work so well. You also have the pretty boy who thinks he is better than the normal guy. The normal guy over compensates by putting his friends down. This is also something I have done. I didn't feel like I was a pretty boy so I rejected most gay people. I figured all homos must be stuck up assholes (some are). This group of friends also has a problem with saying things that aren't needed and are quite rude to one another. This is another thing I have done. When I get mad my first instinct is to go for the low blow in order to take them out right away. This is also something that has been done to me as well. So yes we all need to watch this movie again.

I have also been thinking about Karma today. I am not sure if I believe it or not. One can think about our world and how balanced it is at times. For example if you live an unhealthy unbalanced life style you will end up not feeling well as a way for your body to say something is wrong. Also think about how well planned things are such as our bodies and what we eat. We need certain things to live and we just happen to have those things in our environment to fill those needs such as food and water. Now it would be an amazing thing if all of those things just happened, which may be the case. But if they just happened it shows there is some balance to our world.

Today I was posed with the question about my actions and my Karma. I was told I can do anything I want but I must be willing to take the bad/good karma they could cause. I also have been thinking about the success I have had recently in many areas. There was a time when many of these areas were drastically lacking. There was also a time when I had someone in my life and now that area is drastically lacking. So I can see that my life is balancing out. There were a few months when I thought everything had hit bottom but really I was just setting myself up for the current success. The question is when will I be able to find that balance between everything. Rather than having one area extra successful and one area completely lacking I want to have it all balanced. I am not sure what I need to do to find that balance. Anyway...