Gay Pride

Gay pride is coming up soon. The sad part is I am very torn with going or not. At this point I do have to work, which I kind of like. It gives me an excuse not to go. That being said part of me does want to go. Last year was my first gay pride ever. I did 2 in one months time. Both were really fun, but things have changed a little since then. I don't really have anyone I want to go with. Yes I could go with some friends, but going leads to another problem. It is VERY likely that I would spot someone that would make me uncomfortable. I also don't want to ruin pride for that person. I was also able to go to San Francisco Pride last year, and there is no way the Salt Lake Pride could come close to the amount of fun I had in San Francisco.

Part of me wants to say fuck it and go and have a great time and not even think about what could happen. I need to live my life and shouldn't worry about who I run into. But should I run into someone I know it would be odd. I have had an uncomfortable run in at a restaurant. Part of me wanted to pick up and leave but the other half knew I needed to stay. I was there eating just as they were so there was no reason for me to leave. But the whole meal was the most uncomfortable thing I have experienced. Now pride would be different than a restaurant, at pride I would be free to move as far away as I choose, while still having fun. I know most people are going to tell me to go and not even give it another thought, but it's not that easy.